Lots of things running through my mind and not a single word can be typed down here. All centered around M and what I'm feeling right now. The memories are just too many. The guilt even more.
I finally did send M an email this morning. 3 lines of farewell. Got a response about an hour later.
With this I hope there are no more reminders of the time we had together and of how it painfully ended. I do hope and wish that all goes well for him.
I've deleted that email just so that I don't have to remember any more. Please let this be a story ended forever. Any sequels? please let it be more pleasant than this current state of sadness and guilt.