Thursday, February 25, 2016

Does it really?

Time heals all things. I've read this as often enough as I've heard it.

I think one just forgets or adapts.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

The temple visit

Been to Subrahmanya today. First time visit to a proper dedicated temple. Couldn't help but compare the devotion displayed at the temple and at churches I've been to.

Many questions in my mind. Hope to find answers to the same some day.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Show me the way

My 7 yo was handed the 2 wheeler keys and asked to pick me up from office. Her instant response: ' I don't know the way to mom's office'.

Well, she also doesn't know to ride a 2 wheeler either :-)

Dreams

21 feb, 2016. 3:35 AM. Dream. Too many people in the Udupi house. Acha still there. Dont know abt Ajit and Amrith. Dont see Joel and Leah in dream either. Relatives and their relatives and dont know who else are there in the house. Remember seeing some old people and foreigners - ladies in specific, in their late 40's or 50's. Dark brown/blonde hair. Plain face. Dont know why I am in Udupi.

I start asking them to leave. Pushing them out. Screaming at them. No fear. They start increasing and  spreading all over the place.

Too much noise chaos and in the name of checking, too much damage caused to security, and cables and home things. Too much property destroyed.

I remember too late to call the police. Even then telephone line is not working. Every time i try calling I hear Mathew uncle voice. Vanitha the maid tells me its out of order when she had tried using it in the past.

There are still some stragglers in the house. It's evening and a few old men with Acha. Dont know what they are discussing. Acha not happy. One person with Acha is tall, old, lean - a slightly taller version of ibrahim kutty uncle. 

Woke up with a mix of fear and worry.

Is this similar to the snake dream the night before my wedding? A sign of things to come?

Tuesday, February 09, 2016

The 'king' has landed

I dislike him so much. I wasn't sure how I'd be able to be in the same place or room as him. Today he's home. He reached by morning flight. Picked him up and drove back. Not a single word said or uttered. I don't know how I will get along in the next few days. Angry. Annoyed. Frustrated. Hurt. Disappointed.

Wednesday, February 03, 2016

The journey, sometimes

Found this while browsing through Facebook posts.

Monday, February 01, 2016

Another day

The urge to be reckless is so strong. Knowing the consequences of doing so is what holds me back.

Should I just give in?