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Weird Dreams

This morning I woke up around 6:00 AM to switch off my alarm. Couldn't think of getting out of bed even though Joel was awake next to me. So stayed in bed and drifted off again. During that time I had a weird dream.

I could see my school, the teachers, students playing in the grounds, the classrooms and a lot of faces from that time. I entered each class just to see whom I could recognise. The faces were younger. So many people and most of whom I tried smiling at or tried talking to. But they looked through me or past me. I realised that I was my grown up self. So that could be a reason. But then, I couldn't see myself in that crowd.

Tried finding out the date of that particular day. The closest I got was 05-05. But one of the students said it was 5th April. The year wasn't clear.

In and out of this dream, I saw the younger versions of some of my colleagues from work. They responded to me when I spoke to them.

A few of my relatives too showed up and I was excited about showing them around. But in the end, I was never able to find myself there.

Woke up around 7:45 AM feeling very disoriented.

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