The world I live in

When the flesh is willing and the spirit is weak, the need to escape is at a peak.

Do rituals have meanings?

Why do we look at prostitutes and gigolos as some form of lower beings? Same goes for lesbians, gays, transgenders. They are human too. Aren't they? Those who harm, I agree shouldn't go unpunished. But does that mean we club the whole lot and condemn them?

An extra hour of sleep. Late to work but not a stressed out day. First lunch at home during a work day. Early to bed and early to rise, as early as 3:30 AM.

The best thing of the 2018 so far? It's not a continuation of 2017. Though it was a work day, and a tiring one, thankful for the little mercies and grace that I could get through it in one piece and less stressed.

4 days and 3 nights in Goa... technically 3 days and 3 nights spent in a happy atmosphere. Highlight of stay was a little birdie that thought the glass pane of my room window was a wooden bark and starts pecking at it at 6 AM. I don't mind morning wake up calls but not on vacation when I have nothing planned early and reached bed at 2 AM that same morning. Having my best friend along during the trip was a blessing. Thank God for him deciding to be spontaneous. Worked for me since I was down with fever and the works on the day we reached and the next. I didn't have to dig deep and make the impish me surface. Hope to have a longer break the next time I take one with more friends in tow. Maybe an only friends trip should work out.

Some times wish had the magical skills from the Harry Potter series. At least when in danger of physical harm here, could turn myself into a tiger. Nope, not a cow. That would give the word cow a more negative context. But then what do we educated intellectual masses know. We blindly follow our leader. And yes waiting to see some Major festivals in India turn into some 'celebrated' day because why should only a certain religion have all the fun.

Jan 2017 has gone when I blinked. Actually 2016 seems to have continued into this year. Some more hospital stuff. Honing the art of juggling. Cooking almost non-existent at this time of year. Finals at school will soon come. CBSE having a change of curriculum structure. Not sure what the final outcome would be. Heading towards a burnout. The hope of a break in May is what keeps me going.

J: There's a cockroach on the floor Me: Yes, it'd dead. J: No, it's not. It's moving its limbs. Me: Are you sure? J: Yes, it's dancing and prancing.

I may not be the happiest mother right now because I believe I don't spend enough time with my children. I resent being a working mom, not a working woman. No a woman can't have it all unless she has some help. As I vented out to an ex-principal of a kindergarten school, she gave me a better perspective. One which made me realise that though I was working I still was a part of my children's lives and I wasn't as disconnected from them as I thought. The guilt and resentment is now just a quiet discontentment. Someday I will be able to look back on this period with a much better perspective. Until then happy to see my children growing up in little ways into better human beings.

Listening to Susan Boyle sing tonight. I listened to her sing 'I dreamed a dream' on a Youtube clipping a very long time ago. Apart from her throwing the judges and audience into a loop, I didn't think much beyond the phrase 'Don't judge a book by its cover'. Why I listen to her tonight is because of a session I attended at work about Creative Confidence which is about what stops us from speaking up and how to get over those barriers. The same clipping was played during the session and a brief about her life was shared. That got me curious to read about her. But more than that it was her voice I wanted to listen to again. I'm glad I downloaded her songs. Her rendition of Auld Lang Syne got me thinking of my life this year. 2016 has not been an easy year. The year began and almost ended the same way. Hospitals, doctors, tests, reports, juggling expectations from office and home and mostly from myself. Grateful to God for all that He showed me about me. I ...

Death stops life. Life cannot stop death. They cannot exist without the other. I suppose all one can do is make a life worthy to be remembered after death. If a life has made an impact, it will be remembered beyond death. Else both are so shallow, meaningless.

You enter a hospital to admit a loved one. You head to the admission counter. Sometimes if you are lucky enough it's a slow day and you get the total attention. On most days, there's a rush or the counter is terribly under staffed and you wait for more than an hour at the counter. The only reason you may get a bit of attention is if the staff notices that there's a test scheduled by time specified by the doctor which they hadn't noticed before. You got to love the actions and reactions post that little attention to detail. The no. of apologies and apologetic looks sent in your direction, after that mistaken oversight, remind you of those little innocent pups or kittens that you are almost convinced you are looking at the animal and not the person. In all this, you notice that you haven't raised your voice or expressed your displeasure at all. Don't you feel amazed at what you've let yourself get used to? In their rush, you add a bit of a detail they m...

How I wish the current government carried out campaigns and brought meaning to existing laws to safe guard women and children in this country. So far I've seen, days, animals and religion get priority. Is there any political organization willing to take this up?

Quoted from various people, thoughts of wisdom and little one or two liner nuggets keep appearing and reminding me of the blessings I have. Also that when I say goodbye to bad rubbish, there's a board that goes up in the junkyard which says 'No fishing'. Relieved in ways that I haven't fished. If you have to kick a habit, a thing or a person out because you are getting pulled down, say goodbye to that very thing or person. You don't deserve to live a life of misery or guilt or depression or anxiety or stress. You have a life ahead of you to live on your terms and in the way you want. Be good to yourself and to others. But no taking crap.

Received an invite from a friend to Badoo -  a friendship and dating site. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

Why is communication so difficult when it comes to relationships? There is no lack of coaches, guides and material. Yet, it is one of the main issues for personal relationships fall apart.

After an hour in water, relearning how to swim, my 7 yo had a very interesting observation to state after she stepped out of the pool, "Mom, the water is so heavy".

Never have I been so out of sorts to view my payslip. My bank hasn't sms'd me about the amount credited. I hope I don't have to face another struggle to get my dues.

For an ideal location in the heart of Goa for 2 families to vacation. Now in that blessed hunt, who knew the information available out there is in plenty. Heard of OYO Rooms. This afternoon was told of AirBnB. Then again internet searches have the oft used sites of MakeMyTrip and TripAdvisor giving with plenty of suggestions along with Yatra and Cleartrip and more of those sort. Then came HostelBookers and Homestays.in. Now wishing I was single again. Hostels are to be checked out with best friends. By the way, any suggestions of places actually visited?