The world I live in

Received an invite from a friend to Badoo -  a friendship and dating site. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

Why is communication so difficult when it comes to relationships? There is no lack of coaches, guides and material. Yet, it is one of the main issues for personal relationships fall apart.

After an hour in water, relearning how to swim, my 7 yo had a very interesting observation to state after she stepped out of the pool, "Mom, the water is so heavy".

Never have I been so out of sorts to view my payslip. My bank hasn't sms'd me about the amount credited. I hope I don't have to face another struggle to get my dues.

For an ideal location in the heart of Goa for 2 families to vacation. Now in that blessed hunt, who knew the information available out there is in plenty. Heard of OYO Rooms. This afternoon was told of AirBnB. Then again internet searches have the oft used sites of MakeMyTrip and TripAdvisor giving with plenty of suggestions along with Yatra and Cleartrip and more of those sort. Then came HostelBookers and Homestays.in. Now wishing I was single again. Hostels are to be checked out with best friends. By the way, any suggestions of places actually visited?

There are angels in disguises. And then there are invisible angels. Most of the time angels we know are around us but we just don't see them. Thank you to the angel who found my ATM card and submitted to the local authority. Although not much cash is associated with that card, the fact that you found it but didn't keep it speaks volumes about you. God bless you whoever you are and where ever you may be.

Saved the cute little girl from walking into oncoming traffic this afternoon. All her mom could do is just frown her daughter without switching off her cellphone. Getting out of my shocked state and trying to handle the anger building up inside.

Though the lyrics of this song aren't my sentiments echoing, the tune does fit my mood. Hoping the stuck record in my head moves to other all male voices harmonies.

Just read. Don't want to lose this piece. Hence capturing here: http://www.mensxp.com/relationships/better-partner/29863-the-real-reason-why-indian-men-suck-at-dating.html

They just don't go away. Dreams last night were a total mix: - Dad making some cutting remark as usual - Trying to escape a sudden flood caused by rain. Was thankful that I was confident this time about swimming. Bad part was I think I screwed my phone and was left with no way to communicate - One more that I fail to recollect at this time. Most probably as disconnected from the previous two and makes sense in itself.

Time heals all things. I've read this as often enough as I've heard it. I think one just forgets or adapts.

Been to Subrahmanya today. First time visit to a proper dedicated temple. Couldn't help but compare the devotion displayed at the temple and at churches I've been to. Many questions in my mind. Hope to find answers to the same some day.

My 7 yo was handed the 2 wheeler keys and asked to pick me up from office. Her instant response: ' I don't know the way to mom's office'. Well, she also doesn't know to ride a 2 wheeler either :-)

21 feb, 2016. 3:35 AM. Dream. Too many people in the Udupi house. Acha still there. Dont know abt Ajit and Amrith. Dont see Joel and Leah in dream either. Relatives and their relatives and dont know who else are there in the house. Remember seeing some old people and foreigners - ladies in specific, in their late 40's or 50's. Dark brown/blonde hair. Plain face. Dont know why I am in Udupi. I start asking them to leave. Pushing them out. Screaming at them. No fear. They start increasing and  spreading all over the place. Too much noise chaos and in the name of checking, too much damage caused to security, and cables and home things. Too much property destroyed. I remember too late to call the police. Even then telephone line is not working. Every time i try calling I hear Mathew uncle voice. Vanitha the maid tells me its out of order when she had tried using it in the past. There are still some stragglers in the house. It's evening and a few old men with Acha. Dont know...

I dislike him so much. I wasn't sure how I'd be able to be in the same place or room as him. Today he's home. He reached by morning flight. Picked him up and drove back. Not a single word said or uttered. I don't know how I will get along in the next few days. Angry. Annoyed. Frustrated. Hurt. Disappointed.

Found this while browsing through Facebook posts.

The urge to be reckless is so strong. Knowing the consequences of doing so is what holds me back. Should I just give in?

To talking! Especially when stressed beyond tolerance.

When it hits you, it hits you, all at one time and in some cases one after another. This seems to be the case with almost everyone I am in touch with. If this is what it means to be an adult, a grown up responsible human being, I think I'll work in social services in my next life. And definitely no marriage, no kids. Perhaps the coward's way out is what I am thinking of. For now, I tackle the multiple issues that have just fallen in my lap without restraint. P.S. : Thank you so much God  for the angels to help in the form of family and friends.

Looking back I should have not turned my back on the dream that I had the night before the big day. It was a warning and I didn't heed it. A person walking in front of an oncoming vehicle repeatedly and getting hit. A snake that never let me rest. It didn't make sense then. Now, it speaks volumes. Perhaps the future would negate that warning and I will dream a better dream, someday, a dream of better and more good things to come. Until then, I face reality. And face it I will. Dear God, I don't know what the next second holds. Just don't let go of my hand.