The world I live in

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Finally into the last month of this pregnancy. I’m glad that this period is coming to an end. Frequency of visits to doc have increased to almost once a week.   On Sat, had an NST done. That seems normal. Doc also felt that baby’s now no more in a breech position. I’m glad.   Birthdays happening in plenty now at office. Rithesh celebrated his during last week of Sept. Below is team MER without Thanu in it.     Coming up next is VB’s birthday, then mine and then Girish. With that a whole cycle of MER birthdays get over. At home, it’s just mine and mom’s left. And of course, now this little one’s too. A few more birthdays among friends – BV, Cereen, AK, Nikhil. Will have to check orkut and facebook for the rest. Not great at remembering everyone’s birthdays.   Vivek will be in town during the last week of Oct and then again in Dec during Christmas time :).  

Looks like I’m never going to have a single sane day till delivery time. Each day there’s something new brought into my thought process. I’m just wondering what’s in store for me next. Just after wondering I don’t really want to know either.   If it’s not an attitude, then it’s a behaviour. If it’s not behaviour, it’s a job loss. If it’s not job loss, it’s a decision that may alter the rest of my life.   I don’t know what I should or should not be doing. I want out. I’ve had enough. NEED A MAGICAL HUG!  

  Deep caught me on camera the other day while I was enjoying my icecream cone at work.   Waiting eagerly for Nov 2008. As per last visit to Dr. Malathi, due date is now 18 th Nov. I’m optimistic that this time I won’t have a C-section :)