The world I live in

She's become such an integral part of my life over 5 years. I'm happy that she's going to do what makes her happy. A little sad that she won't be easily accessible

Meeting a colleague turned friend after about 14 years is a blessing and I was truly blessed to meet a good friend after so long. Hoping to meet more often in the coming years :)

Let go of the old to make way for the new Feel the emotion instead of ignoring it Welcome tears. Not fears. Help yourself first. You ain't good as a dead person to help another. Breathe. Move. Love!

...which also turned into a coping mechanism Just dont expect anything. It hurts real bad when expectations aren't met. No expectations? No hurt. Safe right?  The things we do to ourselves to avoid feeling the pain of being hurt which leads to zero trust, and any little ray of sunshine, of hope is blacked out, over time.  Talk to that inner child. Comfort it now in a way you expected it way back then. 

A recent action of mine generated emotions, a lot of feelings and thoughts. Most were not pleasant at all to experience. Some truths showed up.  I may have damaged a relationship with a friend. That and I have to work on building a better relationship with myself. 

Weird observation. The days I eat pork, I have nightmares. 

Understand there's various factors, circumstances apart from what you see, feel and think.  Try everything. You may mess up again. So you get up again. And try again.  It is worth it.

Oh the joys of reading when seeking answers. And finding answers to questions you long forgot. And it starts to make sense. Then you find yourself ready for another adventure.  How do you feel?