...which also turned into a coping mechanism Just dont expect anything. It hurts real bad when expectations aren't met. No expectations? No hurt. Safe right? The things we do to ourselves to avoid feeling the pain of being hurt which leads to zero trust, and any little ray of sunshine, of hope is blacked out, over time. Talk to that inner child. Comfort it now in a way you expected it way back then.
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