The world I live in

A recent action of mine generated emotions, a lot of feelings and thoughts. Most were not pleasant at all to experience. Some truths showed up.  I may have damaged a relationship with a friend. That and I have to work on building a better relationship with myself. 

Weird observation. The days I eat pork, I have nightmares. 

Understand there's various factors, circumstances apart from what you see, feel and think.  Try everything. You may mess up again. So you get up again. And try again.  It is worth it.